Drink some water, eclipse incoming
there's something going on with the moon and the sun and the nodes and the earth.
Happy eclipse weekend. Because of Mercury’s retrograde and also because I have ADHD and thus timeblindness, I got the dates wrong last newsletter. I thought eclipse was coming up fast, but it’s actually this next Monday. Womp, hope you found somewhere to watch and you don’t go blind! Look with caution 🫶🏼
The thing about the shadow is it’s always there.
Did you know it’s possible to do something every week for roughly 40 weeks and still almost forget to do it? It is. As proof, I almost forgot to write this newsletter this week.
It’s been a mess the past week or so. By “it” I mean life. It’s also been really beautiful, like especially so.
Some of the beautiful things:
I’m still in Texas, feeling the weather that makes people move to Texas even though they’ve heard it will be over 100° for weeks on end before long. I got a sunburn and it rules.
I went to a wedding and got to see a friend of ten years marry someone she loves and share that excitement with two huge fucking families, like tens of first cousins kind of huge families.
I hung out with my first boyfriend who is now a friend and that maybe… healed something? I don’t know, I didn’t know how it would feel but it was nice.
An Argentine woman told me I was “number one on the dance floor pero after the groom” to which I said “I feel the same.”
I took some risks and practiced looking foolish and testing if I’d survive it and I did, a few times. In 2024 we are brave.
I have lots of friends I’m getting to stay with, to dine with, to walk with, and to hug. Some of them have kids and those kids can now say “Mr. Fred” which is weird but makes me very happy.
Looking ahead, I get to spend the eclipse with family in the place that is probably most responsible for making me, surrounded by hills and cedar trees and limestone and wildflowers.
Most of the messy and hard things involve other people in ways that make me want to be mindful of their privacy. But they can all be described by old demons returning or revealing they weren’t ever gone. It makes me think about a time I said offhand to a friend that I was trying to figure out how to kill my ego and he said, “I think it’s a better to make friends with it. I’m not sure you can kill it anyway.” And he’s right of course. Same thing with those demons.
This is all especially resonant with the upcoming solar eclipse on Monday, April 8. Eclipses are like earthquakes in the zodiacal cycle -- that sounds nice, but does it mean anything? Eclipses are the lights being swallowed, digested, and dumped out by the dragons Rahu and Ketu. Eclipses are the high (the Sun) and the low (the Moon) colliding, the powerful and the weak sitting in one place, fighting for space, succumbing to each other over and over.
If you want to chat about where that is happening in your chart, let me know! You can reply to this email with questions and I’ll either answer them directly or put an anonymized version in next week’s email.
Always a lot of credit goes to the people who have been my teachers, both directly and through their freely shared knowledge, and so many books.
